Both/And: Hello to Gemini Season

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My thoughts on Gemini season; the ways this energy can influence you, especially if you have Gemini placements; and the beauty of duality.

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Duality. It’s my favorite thing. Being everything all at once. If you know me IRL, it is common to hear me say, “When the Gemini starts Gemini-ing, nobody’s safe.” I mean that. I often attribute the elements of my personality that are full of force, disruptive and willing to rub your face in it to me having a Gemini moon. The only thing that I might enjoy more than chaos (conflict) is fun. It took me years to realize that I didn’t need to slap a muzzle on my thoughts, no matter how intrusive they might seem.

Aside from being a master communicator, Gemini placements also have a permanent devil on the shoulder. Where my Libra stellium wants balance and grace, there is that persistent voice in my mind whispering, “Stop being scary. Do that sh*t!” This blog is living proof of this; I just woke up one morning and decided I had something to say.  

While Gemini season started on May 20^th, I am surrounded by June Geminis, so it felt apt to save this post for the start of the month. Gemini’s planetary ruler is Mercury, which in astrology, governs communication, intellect, adaptability, and informational processing. Geminis are known boundary pushers, oftentimes bending the rules within their respective industries. While we have a few clear-cut examples of the risks associated with a Gemini being given an extraordinarily long leash, their influence can be most profoundly seen in the following industries: film/TV, music, journalism, education and politics.

Since it is clear that this will be an astrology post (really shouldn’t be shocked by now), let’s talk about what’s happening this week. There is a Full Moon today in Sagittarius, which happens to be Gemini’s sister sign. For those unfamiliar, a sister sign is the zodiac that sits exactly opposite of yours on the astrological wheel (Aries/Libra, Taurus/Scorpio, Gemini/Sagittarius, Cancer/Capricorn, Leo/Aquarius and Virgo/Pisces). Sister signs are important in astrology because they are complementary pairs—sharing the same fundamental desires but expressing them in opposite ways — each one the mirror image of the other across the zodiac.

The energy associated with having a Full Moon in Sagittarius while the Sun is in Gemini can call Gemini placements to overcome stagnation and the need to overanalyze; release rigid thinking; and pull you to decide that you actually can have it all.  As a not so subtle callback to my headline, I have decided to step into the energy of I don’t want to choose. I would like them both. For the bulk of my twenties, I struggled internally with what path I wanted to take—I could either be a professional OR a creative; I could be great at math OR have literary prowess; I could have a clean capsule wardrobe OR I could obsess over new trends. This internal power struggle often left me with analysis paralysis, often fixated with how others saw me because I could not grapple with the fact that my identity was not cut and dry.

I oftentimes behave like the ocean—there is a vastness about my personality, I like to touch every corner of a concept, style, methodology before deciding where I would like to flow consistently. As I age, I am growing less concerned with deciding at all. I quite enjoy being a walking contradiction and the fascination that comes with it. My presentation is a spectrum in and of itself. I realized I did not have to outgrow play. As adults, we are taught that fun should be consumed in doses, we are to allot time for passion/exploration, with our primary focus being career-oriented pursuits. I tried this on for size and have subsequently rejected it. I will not become another middle-aged person who talks about their should haves ad nauseum. I exist during one of the most fascinating times in modern history and I will not reduce myself to being another person whose life is measured by how well they colored inside the lines.

In the past, I received feedback that my motivations remain unclear, that I was difficult to place/guide because of all the facets I contained. More importantly, I allowed this feedback to influence how I showed up, which was never as my full self. I now sit quite comfortably with the fact that my inability to be still, to be simple, to be content with a singular modality is a superpower not a character flaw. It is quite radical to be a person who continues to add, experiment and push boundaries. There is beauty in knowing that the people who no longer have access to you are confident in assumptions about you that no longer apply.

So, this month (and for the foreseeable future), I am saying yes to both. I am a professional and a creative; I love cool colors and warm palettes; I embrace stillness and turbulence. I am a Libra who cannot contain the chaos of her Gemini (double entendre for those who know). I no longer seek permission and not everything deserves an explanation. There is a certain peace in being hard to place.

The timing could not be more apropos considering tomorrow officially marks the start of Pride Month. It feels intentional and reaffirming to launch this piece, to discuss stepping into this powerful energy on the cusp of June. For the next few weeks, this space will celebrate the sapphic community in the way it deserves—cerebrally, boldly, and without dilution.

These next few pieces will hold deeper vulnerability, introduce you to a part of me that rarely is expressed centrally however, I have grown tired of existing in a vacuum. So much of my experience as a lesbian has informed how I relate to the world, influences my art and is responsible for how I care for others.

The chaos is just beginning.